silent of power

what a silent night.
i know,actually is midnight.Is near morning already.
i haven't sleep yet.i can't sleep well.don't know why.
Is it the trial brings a lot of forces to me?
am i worry 'bout my result?
my family always scold me that i am doing badly in my educate.
I didn't feel anything.I am numb look.
I don't want reverse to before.
I had heard that people said must always look forward.
I am tying my best to do well.
but..the truth is i cant.
who can help me?nobody accept myself.
I am no emo but just the truth.
NOW,i just know that i need to sleep.